Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Jaimee and Kyla are my closest cousins in the Philippines and during my last year there, we were always together. I know I love them. But now, I realized that I love them more than that. They are like my little sisters. I dream that if someday I will become successful in my own way, I will take them with me. I dream that someday, Jaimee, Kyla, and my son, Xander would be all with me like how a family should be.
Let us not forget my best friends. Vanessa, Cristina, Justine and Christian. I wasn't with my parents for almost five years. I'd be lucky if I see one of them for a few months in one year. And my friends were the ones who were always there to listen to me, cheer me up, give me advise, encourage me and support me in all my goals and dreams. This moving is a very big thing for me, the last time I talked to one of my friends was last Christmas, when before, we talk everyday first thing in the morning and before I sleep. My day would never be complete if I don't talk to them. My friends are the people whom I will cherish forever next to my family and more than my lovers. My life would be empty and boring without them. But now I also have to move on, I can't always look back and wish for the past. Yes, they are my friends but I don't own them. They have their own lives too. As much as I don't want this kind of change to happen, as much as this is hard for me to swallow, I have to accept it.
Part of moving on is meeting new people and eventually make new friends. I can't wait to have new friends. I really need one right now, someone within my reach. BUT I am not trying to replace my best friends. There is no one in the world who could replace them. They know me more than I know my self (strange but true), they know what is going on in this little brain of mine. Even my dear Jaimee and Kyla. They know what my silence means. They can tell if I am upset, hungry or just plain tired with just one look even to other people I am having this blank expression on my face and that's what I like about them.
Vanessa is my childhood friend who never change even if we've already grown, even if there were times that we lost touch, she's always the same when we see each other again and she's always there to listen and accept the crazy things that I have done. Cristina is my personal psychologist, she is just overhwelming to talk to, she is very sweet and thoughtful and in the short time that we've spent together before the crazy college life, we've made a lot of memories and crazy promises, I could just smile when I think of her. Justine -- I can't just describe her with one word. She is also like a sister to me, the whole family knows her. I remember the first time that I saw her, she was my classmate in third year highschool and I was being a snob to her but she was still kind to me. How could you resist a person like that?! She is the only person in highschool, and in my life that I never lost contact with. She is the most humble and down-to-earth person that I've ever known in my life. You would be a complete idiot if you make her angry because she is a very calm person. Last but not least is Christian.Most of the time we're just being kids when we're together. If one day I wake up with a crazy "what I want to be when I grow up" moment, he doesn't only listen or support me, he also wants to fulfill it with me. We planned a lot of things together. Things that we'd do when we're both free to do whatever. Things to look forward to in the future. We also have short term "goals," we planned A LOT of things and it's funny how we never got to do them and we both know why it never happens. So these are the friends that I've made in my 21 years of existence so far, not a lot but worth keeping.
Spell casted @ 12:57 AM