Saturday, October 28, 2006
I hate living in misery. I don't like crying and crying because no matter how hard you think, you know that there's just no solution with the problem you're in. Because you know it's the end. I just hate that feeling. Killing people is just not right. If you kill because of wrath or kill to serve justice. I am beginning to think that dying is not right. But there's nothing that anyone could do about it, because it's a part of life. What's not natural is if the cause of one's death is in the hands of another person.
I guess this is just one of those days that I just feel sad and scared of something I don't know. Whether it's about the rumors around me that I don't have clue of what it is, or the TV show that is on right now that adds up to what I am feeling right now.
Spell casted @ 8:12 PM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Is there such thing as innocent sex? How could you be innocent when you know and do such things??? Someone insisted to me that there is...
Happy Birthday Angel B!!!!!!!!!!!
Spell casted @ 9:15 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Yesterday when I was at the car with Angel, we saw a rather nice looking young lad on the side street, reading a book while he was walking. Angel made a comment that perhaps I would want to date him and that we look good together because it seems that we both like reading so much. Not a bad idea...
I think that was last Tuesday when I was taking the train to work as usual and was reading a book to pass the time. I was so absorbed with it that I didn't even notice the train make stops and hear the conductor say where we were. When I noticed that I have been in the train long enough, I glanced up to see where I was and I saw bushes of pink flowers where the train stopped. I've been taking the train for months now and now every city that we pass by heart. And this one was really unfamiliar. Then the conductor announced that we were already in Burlingame, the next city after San Mateo where I was supposed to get off and it would only stop in San Bruno, the third city after. Goodness, I'm thankful that I always take the earlier train or else I would be late so I took the next train on the way back after about three minutes.
I realized that it's not that bad missing my stop. Just imagine how predictable my routine have become. So it would be nice to get off in a city and see people that I do not know.
Spell casted @ 9:05 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
The gloomy fall weather makes me feel like I'm in London... Not that I would know what it's like because I've never been there.
Sometimes dreams seem so real that even when I wake up and find out it's not real, I still feel like it really happened or will happen. It bothered me for the whole day that I had to tell someone, which made me feel silly and childish afterwards. On the brighter side, I got to know that person a little bit more. Or maybe I just forgot that side of him.
Spell casted @ 9:22 PM