Wednesday, April 11, 2007
I feel like I'm a prisoner.
I may have been born to be one of those meant to please people and could never please their own selves.
I wish I am Miss Perfect but I'm just not. I'm just plain dumb and stupid. Stupid enough to screw my own life and ruin my own future. I screwed up. I wasn't patient enough and I am paying for the price and I don't think it's fair. It's not.
I never had the feeling that whatever it is I'm doing, it's just pure fun or relaxation. There's always someone who won't like my absence because I have to cater to the other person's needs. Emotional and physical presence and whatever it is that I have to offer. It's never about me. It's always about me making someone else happy.
I don't own my self. I don't own my life. I can't even pretend that I own me.
Spell casted @ 8:33 PM